Jan. 26th, 2008 12:35 am
linden_jay: (Heroes- Just a paper salesman)
Just dropping in quicklike to let you guys know that I'm here, I'm safe, and dear lord on toast do I hate the bus. It was a long, boring, tiring trip, cramped and boring and I had to share a seat with an overly perky psychology major. Honestly, does it not make sense that if a person is wearing earphones and there's sound coming from them, they're not interested in chatterating? Apparently it wasn't clear. SIGH.

It was mostly okay though, I suppose. I'm not looking forward to the trip back, mostly because there's a HUGE fucking snowstorm on the way. This part of the province are almost as wimpy as those of you in Southern Places where it doesn't snow (Jess). A few inches and they freak. Which makes it not too much fun.

But I'm here, my sister's well, and we spent the night chatting while I made fun of reality television. Standard, really.

I miss my home. And my boy. And my cattens. And my boy. And my people. And my boy.


Dec. 15th, 2007 05:34 pm
linden_jay: (Candle)
I'm in the hotel in Kamloops on a spotty internet connection that I'm pillaging from the bar and grill downstairs, so we'll see if I actually manage to send this properly.

The service was very, very hard. I stayed clear of pretty much everyone before hand because every time I saw Caelin's mom or sister or his girlfriend, I started to break down, and I was sharing the eulogy with my mother. Somehow, I managed to hold it together to speak, which I'm really glad I was able to do. That meant a lot to me, being able to talk about him and remember him.

For those who I haven't been able to tell, my cousin died from bronchial pneumonia. I don't know for certain, but I wouldn't be surprised if he didn't even know he had it. He had asthma, he smoked, and it was winter, plus the injections he was taking for pain control made him very congested. He went to sleep, and he never woke up.

I've been keeping myself in a state of intentional denial in the days leading up to the service today, knowing that I couldn't let myself break down because I had to speak. The service is over now, and I'm not sure where that leaves me. The goal I've been working toward is passed, and now all there is to do is keep going in a world he's not a part of any more. Right now, that seems really, really hard.

Thank you to everyone who's sent messages of support, talked to me, kept me and my family in your thoughts and prayers. It means so, so much. More than I can ever say.
linden_jay: (Firefly- River leaves)
I'm Canadian, remember? Anyway, we're off for the whole weekend to go and visit my brother and sister in law for the holiday. I'm driving down with my other brothers and sisters in law--six of us in a van--and we'll be driving for nine hours or so, in holiday traffic. Erk.

We'll be back by Monday, and I'll probably be AWOL for most of the time I'm gone, which is SIGH. This whole week has been exhaustifying, and I haven't even watched the SPN premiere yet, and now I won't get to until Monday night at the very earliest. How in the hell I'm going to keep from being spoiled till then I don't know, although being internet cut off should help, sadly.

I will miss everyone, and I'll see you when I get back. Happy Thanksgiving if you're celebrating, and if not, well... I get to have turkey a month sooner than the rest of you. Neener neener neener. MWAH!
linden_jay: (Blue ripples)
Not that it's all that sunshiney. In fact, it spent most of the morning raining. But that's par for the course when you're on or around Vancouver Island, and you learn just to accept it as a given.

It's beautiful here. I mean, unbelievably beautiful. There are arbutus trees and cedars all over the place, and almost everywhere has a view of the ocean. I'm sitting in a wee dining room looking out over the wee cove, which is surrounded by beautiful little tree covered islands, and covered in mist. The ocean is so sheltered and protected that it's as smooth as glass, and AH is out right now in a kayak, going around the coves and little islands. From where I'm sitting, I can even see them... it's pretty spectacular.

I've got five rolls of film, and two of black and white, and I'm very seriously concerned that I'm going to run out of film before the wedding even happens. I'm getting laughed at a lot about that.

I want to move here. I mean, right now. Not necessarily this resort, but this climate, this lifestyle, this... everything. AH would move right this second if we could--I swear, he gets a look at the trees and just SIGHS and gets a dopey grin. So, come tomorrow, I may be going back to where I live, but this place, here? This is home. It's kind of nice to have found it, even if we don't live there yet.

I'll be back sometime tomorrow evening, back to my life and my friends and my cats and my things, and I'm glad. But I'm also glad that I came. I wouldn't have wanted to miss this place.
linden_jay: (Firefly- River leaves)
And I'm off (okay, in six hours, but still) to the wedding! The place is supposed to be beautiful--if I'm really, really lucky, I'll see whales--and my camera's all fixed and ready to go, so I'm really looking forward to that part of it. It's going to be a lot of people, a lot of family, and a lot of time around a lot more people than I'm used to, but I can deal. At least, I think I can.

I got almost everything I wanted to do accomplished today, which is even surprising me! I got things posted (not as much as I wanted, but at least I got some of it up), I've got everything packed (at least I think I do), and I've got things to keep me entertained in the car. Yes, I'm two years old, and I need snacks and books and things to do or I get whiny.

Everyone behave yourselves while I'm gone--no lighting things on fire (that's my job), and I'll see you all... sometime Monday night, I think. Love you miss you see you later! MWAH!
linden_jay: (Chris Kane- cowboy hat Kane)
So, last night, I got to spend my first full day and night all by myself since we moved here. Bliss. Seriously. I got to run around and sing along to the Dixie Chicks at the top of my lungs, and watch six episodes of Heroes, and eat white powdered donuts without my dad acting like they were going to kill me (seriously, this isn't Flowers in the Attic, Dad, they're not poisoned), and just fuck around on the internet all evening. I've been needing to do that for way, way too long.

The fact that my night out here at my parents place all on my own happened to coincide with my ninth wedding anniversary, well, that was not so ideal. But, he was helping his sister move all evening, and I needed to be out here with the cats, so we sucked it up. Honestly, we've never had any luck actually doing something for ourselves on our anniversary anyway. We've always been moving or traveling or moving or a pet gets sick or there's been a family party or just something happens to get in the way. So, no big. Once we have our own place, we'll have a birthday/anniversary/housewarming party, to make up for it all.

Today is The Fair. It's an annual event, with all the traditional stuff. Rides, games, livestock... whatever. My best friend from all the way back in elementary school is in town, and we're going to go together. Should be seriously entertaining *g*.

And this weekend, I go away to a wedding on the Sunshine Coast. I'll be gone Saturday, Sunday, and Monday, for a combination wedding/family reunion. On an island on the ocean. I'm planning to take about seven thousand pictures, so you'll all see what it looks like.

More later, after The Fair! MWAH everyone!

I'm off!

May. 11th, 2007 07:05 am
linden_jay: (Christian with Cross)
Thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthday yesterday--good wishes, cards, posts, emails and presents, I was really and truly spoiled--thank you all.

And for now, off I go to visit [livejournal.com profile] apetslife for the weekend! This is my first meet-an-online-person-in-person, and I'm totally excited, even with having to ride the greyhound for, well, ever. Oh, and I haven't slept yet, in the hopes that I'll sleep on the bus. It'll be character building or... something.

So--be good, no wild parties, no fires (that's my job) and I'll see you all sometime Sunday night.



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